In the back of my mind, I knew I was going to be terminalI saw a surgeon a couple of weeks later. He said unfortunately we can't remove the tumour because you've got METS in your lungs, liver and there's something on your kidneys we're not sure about.
In the back of my mind, I knew I was going to be terminal. I’ve never been upset about that, it’s matter of fact with me.
I’m prepared for what’s going to happen to meThere’s a lot of denial. People often say to me ‘you look really well’ or ‘you’re going to be alright; you’ll fight this’. But I’ve been given a terminal diagnosis so it’s not going to end well or end the way I want it to end. Some people tell me I’m brave which frustrates me. I’m not brave at all. I’m dealing with what life’s throwing at me and I’d rather not be dealing with it. Sometimes I just want to pretend it’s not happening. But I’ve got the benefit of being able to deal with this. I’m prepared for what’s going to happen to me.
I'd heard about Treetops but initially thought, 'I don’t want to go there. It will be full of people dying'. I thought it would be clinical and all doom and gloom. But it’s not. It’s how you want it to be.
There’s something about this place. It gives me a boost
The atmosphere was so calm and relaxing and I really enjoyed myself. There’s something about this place. Every time I come here, it doesn’t matter how I’m feeling, I go away feeling better. It gives me a boost, like recharging me and building up my positivity.
Personalised wellbeing supportThere’s a lot of understanding and no judgement at Treetops. You don’t have to come and explain what’s wrong with you. They understand, which is very refreshing. This is more about my mental health and wellbeing, making me feel better – and finding ways to do that. And it works for me. It’s personalised and geared around what you want to get out of it. It’s about you. And at your pace. For me, it’s all benefit. You’re made to feel special.
I was so reluctant to come here and I regret not coming sooner.